Quote: Barry_McKenzie " <snip> '"
This is for your sake.
You are a very troubled man. You had an awful childhood, you have never been loved, and you never will be loved. You don't deserve to be, you made a choice in life and now your only fleeting satisfaction is from occassionally exacting negative reactions from people, since you know you are incapable of exacting positive ones. It must be hard to get up in the morning, being you.
People on these forums have so much unconditional love in their lives, which you will never have yourself, and you are powerless to change that in the slightest - although, poor you, you evidently try your pathetic best.
You are a middle-aged, fairly intelligent, disturbed man, living a pointless existence. You are the victim of a very disordered mind, and you will likely be incarcerated in an asylum for this - although you already are, and forever will be, incarcerated in the prison of your own depressed, disordered, defective mind.